voidofemptyness

it's cold and dismal my  feelings have dried up and I can barely take it (i can barely take it) and I'm on the verge of dying I'm lost .... help me I'm dying...  can't anyone hear me... my  tears, the crying, the shame, the pain I've suffered no one cares everythings lost ... I've lived and I've died Their is no savior their is only death which I embrace I take it and welcome it with open arms I'm slowly scaring myself with every drop of blood I drain. I cleanse this world of my tainted self no one  appreciates me I need to feel... nothing is left I have no  life.. all is   lost there's nothing left.. worth living  

with every dying breath i live to suffer each day and night only to exist but what do i do with this existance that i have do i just sit here and rot or do i do something with it charious it unless i do something i feel... all these feelings will just forever torment me in a way only life can tear me apart and I here just to be everyone's little rag doll.. and that..  i'm so easily used and fucked.. by people i love...or rather...loved... dead till the end of time.. and that shall be my purpose?

i fell.. in love with a girl... the girl died... and i died with her she's gone.. away from me all i have is my feelings for her... i can't express my feelings they're all bottled up inside gone with no place to stay no place to go my head is fucked up i wanna release my spirit from this cage this prision i wanna slice threw this perfect skin the more i tear apart the more i feel closer to her i can feel her presance i don't wanna leave this place here i wanna stay close to her i wanna feel her but i can never go back to when i had her at my side i wanted to be with her forever i wanted things to last forever but i can't she's gone from me no

I remember as a child when you use to beat me I felt like shit alone I felt like shit alone i couldn't express myself until I met you I was able to be myself around you  you made me smile when things were grim I was able to feel things around you that i've never felt before my love jess...

i wanna slice the pain away...  will it make the pain stop will it stop my pain... i feel it rising ... it's pouring out  overflowing i see the read marks i'll cut them out i'll show them all.. how it feels to be me  why won't it end the pain is rising  im soaked with blood.. is this mine or is it somone else's i can't stop the pain let me live without anyone to scar me without love... without feelings without me putting myself on the alter with my words having meaning and life instead of my words meaning  nothing.. and my time here wasted on those who weren't worth wasting my life on bleeding for those who i once called friends wa

I don't understand these feelings I feel but I do understand that i feel heavy emotion right now the energy is flowing  through me  like pure love  a desire i've never felt before i feel  the power I don't fear it  i feel it so  strongly I can't make it into words or it's hard to understand it but i do feel high energy radiant a fury of energy waves that be explained the forces can't keep me from what i know is right

i can't hate myself enough i use to kid around to pretend that I wasn't depressed or that im happy i can't scar myself enough nothing can make me happy... i hold my life in my hands and i pray to god that he takes it away but alas there is a voice but not you god.. my voice echoing in my skull and me wanting to scream but i've never been good with feelings im only good at lashing out on others and causing pain on myself I hold my life in my hands i hold my feelings through this lock fate this gun to my head will it explain my feelings will it answer my pain i want my innocense back i can't take this shit that was givin to me

once a friend now just a hallow  corpse......that bitch will suffer for the pain she caused you.... i hope she realizes what she's done.. what she lost or what she never could understand.... with your body laying here in front of me cold with a no life I want you to wake up i want to see you smile  again i wish  this was a dream that I could wake up from I remember  all those times you had a smile on your face when we were having the time of our lives but all thats gone now... you my friend, my brother, are  a hero like none other I hope  your happy where ever you are now...